Alone

Why am I so alone? Is it because of me? Is it because of how I look? What could it be? Am I not worth looking at? I know I am not bad looking, nor am I a terrible person. So why can't I get a girlfriend? The lowest of the low of people have girlfriends, and while those of that caliber attract girls of the same caliber, but it seems like I can't get a girl to be interested in me, let alone hold a conversation that might bloom into a relationship. The girls that do talk to me, get me to think that it might go somewhere, they immediately mention their boyfriends and how great they are. It may be that the girls I am usually around are kind of shallow and baseless while still faithful to their boyfriends. My standards might be high. Or too high, but the girls feel like they are using their boyfriends as a fall back. So they can try out and flirt with boys, and if the boy they are flirting with gets too close, they can force him back with slipping in a small, powerful statement into the conversation. "Oh, one time my boyfriend-" That's all it takes, just a simple mention of another boy can instantly turn a guy away. They can still flirt with this boy they like, but don't have to commit to it. Although it might just be an excuse to keep me away. I am at a point in my adolescence where I desperately want companionship. But alas, no girl will hold a conversation nor even speak to me with interest aside from talking about themselves. Sigh. I just want to know someone new.