N.S.A. Watching

Ever since the N.S.A. came out in the open and said that they did watch us at all times, I have become very paranoid with what I say. For instance I was saying how a game was the "BOMB!" to my friend. I thought it was so cool that I had to bring back an old outdated phrase. But after I said this I thought "Oh crap, they might think that I'm a terrorist or something saying that the game case housed a small bomb or something. I feel like I have to be as patriotic as an eagle made of our american flag or else the CIA will be knocking on my door. So I feel like I have to always be nice to america.

I just feel like my own freedom of speech is being psychologically limited because I know someone, somewhere is watching me. That's no way to talk... now, if you excuse me I have to go and not do anything but sit in my patriotic corner.

Responsibility and Growing up

As I go into my 15th year on this planet I realized that I'm terrified of getting older. Even my dreams are getting responsible. Last night I had a dream about how I got a job and got underpaid and had to ask my boss why I wasn't being paid fully. It was the most terrifying dream I've ever had. It's scaring me because I may one day be that guy who tells everyone to stop laughing because it's giving me a headache. I want to be fun and adventurous forever and for whatever reason I don't think I will. I might go from this:

To somebody who hates everything and everyone. This scares me mostly because I will always age and  I will always become wiser to the point in which I won't do anything because I will know of its outcomes already because I know it won't end up like I want it too. So I guess I will leave you guys with a word of  advice. Live the way you want to and never stop yourself from doing something you wan to just because of-wait I forgot what I was saying and now I am sleepy g'night and whatever.

Blib blub Blog

This post is pretty much just me officially introducing you guys to my blog. This blog is in a single word: "realizations". Meaning anything I post on here is merely my own things that I notice in my own life. These posts will almost always be in the humorous context. Whether it be about life and its many odd ups and downs or about the average day realizations, I will always have some sort of humor behind it. But seeing as these posts will happen when I think of them. meaning I will post very erratically with seemingly now sort of schedule or cohesiveness. So yeah... Bye.

Brain and Stuff

I hate the feeling of not retaining written or filmed information. The feeling is very odd because I usually feel this way when I'm being fed info and I feel like its going in through one ear and out some other hole. Most times it feels like it's not even getting through my insanely thick frontal half of my forehead. It's like the information and my brain are on very different wave lengths and just choose not to get through to my severely starved brain.

The only way I can see anything getting through is if it has no real life applications or it has to be manually injected into my brain.

New Years Resolutions

New Years resolutions are complete bull. I noticed that when anyone asks me what mine are they put in their own little suggestions. A conversation would most likely go like this: "Hey, Alex what are your new year resolutions?" "I don't know gimme a-" "Hey! You know what be a great one?" " What?" "If you stopped eating stuff in the living room." "Uhh.... sure...." I see that New Year Resolutions are something people take advantage of. They'll just say all the crap that is wrong with you and just tell you to put it on your resolution list. Well I think that if I just did all of everyone's new year resolutions Suggestions that I would turn into a freakish blob of matter that couldn't possibly offend or annoy anybody.

Out of Control

I realized that I don't like not being in control of my life. Not things about what I'm going to do today, but things that I know I can't control but want to. For instance, time. Time to me is something I should be able to control only when it fits me. Scenario: I want money. In this scenario I think of the only logical solution... Will myself to go back in time from the future and put money where I want. Of course this doesn't work and it is often anti-climactic. But know matter how many times I need money, I still attempt it and still and get no money. Future me is selfish douche-bag.

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